So well said,
I always go back to the Big Book to remember that resentment and anger are to root causes of our affliction. If we cannot give up our resentments we are doomed to fail. I never believed that the BON gave a steaming pile of poop about my recovery. That was not the point - I had to surrender to the process let my self-pity, selfish anger and foolish resentment slip way before I could get well. Though I have been sober for 7 years (WOW) I continue to struggle sometimes daily to stay grounded in my recovery. I am humbled daily not only by those who stay sober but also by those who relapse and pull themselves up for another effort at sobriety. They are truely courageous when they never stop trying.
Notions that addicted nurses are somehow some of the best and brightest around are foolhardy assumptions made by people caught up is self delusion. Stay honest my friend and write to me anytime here in public or PM and I will answer.
Peace and Namaste