it all comes with time...when I was a nursing student I had to deal with my first death eventhough it was not as direct as yours( I saw my pt deteriorate rapidly in just one day and the next morning he died just before my shift) It was hard for me because I was talking with him and his family the day before. You will never be numbed by the situation but in time you will be able to cope with it much better and realize that it is a process of life. Hopfully you will be able to make your dying pt's quality of life positive in the care that you will provide them...and that is what is important. Hang in there, you will do fine.