Originally Posted by
KKRN1014
I blew it....the day the doctor called me to set up my appt for subonxe discussion/admin I was in the car with my father and couldn't call so he just set up the appt and told me to not take anymore dilaudid past 4pm yesterday, 24 hrs before my appt. I did great until about and hour ago....18 hrs has alway been my limit when I tried to detox on my own. I don't know if its mandatory that I have 24 hrs clean before he treats me. Since we couldn't talk he wasn't able to tell me how things work. I"m still going to my appt with the hopes he can still treat me but if not at least i can set up an appt that is around 18 hrs after I stop taking the drugs. I know its suppose to be hard,withdrawl that is, but at 18 hrs I start with the vomiting, and cramps and and I"m scared to death i'm gonna go into seizures. I hope that 18 hrs is good enough to be able to start treatment especially if he won't let me today. I won't give up, I'm ready to get clean.The with drawls are my biggest fear but I know that once I get thru that I can stay clean psychologically.:Life is just too damn short to let a drug control it. I don't enjoy it anymore so its time for sure. I'm rambling and I"m sorry, but your a 'captive" audience.....LOL