Still need support but for emotional crap

**lilsunny** · 10-29-2008, 05:50 PM

The job is with the same organization but I have a different manager and on a different floor. It is days and the manager is very willing to help me succeed and will work my schedule around the TPAPN meetings and it is a set schedule so that I can schedule therapy and doctor appointments. My advocate that I have is very supportive too and has helped the manager and me with the understanding of the requirements of TPAPN and what goes into my employee files and what stays out. The EAP though can check on me can not keep copies of what I send to TPAPN... that is between the manager and me... so I dont know what his feeling were towards that. Though I am still nervous..I am happy so I am keeping a positive attitude toward this..

**lilsunny** · 02-01-2009, 08:32 PM

Since September 2008 my life has been a roller coaster of emotions, tears, fears and now I can add laughter to that list. Seems I have found my spot in nursing again and that is in med surge. Slow my confidence is coming back and I have co workers who all care about each other. We went through the my first quarter meeting and I have recieved a good report from fellow workers and manager. It is still hard going to therapy and dealing with my closet as I call it, but the depression has been lifting. My therapist believes that I suffer from PTSD from my past. Who knows. I know I am thinking better and I am still taking each day as a gift. I am working now on the relationships within my family, and that of letting go. Now looking back, I can not change what had happened, nor the paths I went down. Some of those I choose not to due to my kids and the path I am on today. Funny isn't it, the past that hurts, at times make a person stronger than they thought they are.