[DiversionGrad1]

Reading your husbands post in June really took me back to the days that followed when I was popped for diverting narcotics as well. It's funny, I too was so adamant on telling people why I did it, depression, bad relationship and that I was never impaired at work, etc., etc. So desperate to let people know I was NOT A MONSTER!!! Being a graduate of diversion I now know I was never a monster, just a nurse with a problem. And you? You will only convince yourself you are not a monster with recovery and time. I know exactly how you feel. One day, you will look back and say, wow, I was not a monster, just a nurse with a problem....and you will be smiling...hang in there.

[DiversionGrad1]

Originally Posted by maggiedanurse

get the help you so desparately need!!! in the mean time get another job away from the profession. working with you people is an absolute nightmare!!!!

Oh..and this one above? She's an ass...don't listen to crap like that!!!

[RN4Recovery]

Hi everyone,
I found this forum by accident a few days ago, and started reading "Wife fired for diverting." It really hit home with me. About 21 months ago (but who's counting, right?) I went to work high as a kite on "my own prescription medications" and got justifiably spanked. I had a negative drug screen (don't know what that was about) and had never "diverted" from work. Guess what. I am still an addict (and yes...and alcoholic), and I still violated the public trust, and I am still accountable for my irresponsible actions. I got fired from the ED,I went to rehab, "admited and came to believe," and have lived happily in recovery ever since. Because of the logistics of being licensed in two states (my bottom occured in North Carolina) I am just now entering California's Diversion Program after 19 months clean and sober. It's a pain, and like all addicts, I don't like surrendering control to anyone or anything. I too spent a lot of time rationalizing why what I did was not that bad. In the end, it doesn't matter. I did this to myself. I will be forever grateful for that day, February 11, 2005, when I reached that point of incomprehensible demoralization that forced me to get the help I needed. Good luck to your wife...and you. Don't worry about whether she is or is not an addict. Recovery is a beautiful, spititual path and if she wants to keep her license, it's one she will be required to follow.

Grateful for today

[Dutchesslaura]

I was touched by your wife's problems. I suffer the same stuff. I am a proud graduate of the California Nurse Diversion Program. It was a pain to go through. What a relief it was to find out I wasn't alone. I do however have an old DUI on my record and having trouble finding a job. I'm upfront about it. But can feel the door slamming in my face every time. I am looking in Santa Clara County area if anybody has any advice.

[fuzzie]

Originally Posted by maggiedanurse

get the help you so desparately need!!! in the mean time get another job away from the profession. working with you people is an absolute nightmare!!!!

All I can say is too bad maggiedanurse has to live with herself...too bad so sad.