my story

[welshy905]

Hello fellow recoverers. I am 2 years into recovery from addiction. I have stumbled a bit along the way, but I am getting through somehow. I am in the Pa VRP, I am currently practicing and have been back to work for about one year. I was busted at work on August 8th 2005. After two weeks in rehab and 12 weeks of payed sick leave I returned to work. What a mistake it was to walk back into that place!! The shame and disgrace I felt is beyond explaination. And it seemed like people were trying to understand. But all I could see was shock and disapointment. It was like they were asking " how are you doing?" but all I heard was " how could you have done this? " I worked at this hospital for 21 years and in the SPU for 19 of those 20 years. Anyway after three months of "chart review" duty and coming home in tears, I relapsed. It was the last few days of the month and I was still suffering from the worst insomnia. I decided to take a xanax to help me sleep. Long story short.... the urine was positive. Lost my liscense for 90 days, got fired from my job and reached the bottom of the barrel. Started taking things seriously and returned to work August of 2006! I really like my job and it is actually much less stressful. I really feel better since I started going to meetings and meeting other nurses. The support I get from all of you is the best!!

[victorianiki]

Glad to hear u are doing good! It gives those of us new to recovery hope to see that maybe we too, can make it!!